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OK I’ve moved back. Undecisive can? I need to make money from blogging can? Here I can jiggy with the code. Want to read or not?

So lets move back!

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A long holiday well spent, although we stayed on the island. Well spent coz I had it filled with activities lah.

Saturday was at skatepark of coz. Nothing much. The kids are getting better now. Much much better. Me oso. Well at least I can skate and balance on the board now, better than last time, not being able to even stand on it. Bah!

Sunday morning went to market with Mak and Abah, then we had brunch at Hj Maimunah and laugh and laugh. Love those moments. Badly needed those laughter. Then it was ice ice skating baby! With the jackos. Our first time. Damn Expensive lah! $20 each for 2 hours. But it was worth it. Atu and Aniq can now already skate without the support. Amazing kan? Kids learn so fast dont they.

Monday was picnic with Mak and Abah. Mak cooked Mee Siam, on my request. Her mee siam is and will always be the best! I  cooked my famous nasi goreng kampung pedas maut. Then got ayam goreng jintan, goreng pisang, sandwich, cucur udang. Its always like tis when its me and mak who do picnics. Sure plentiful of food one.

Tuesday, brought mak and abah to JB, Tesco. Then in the evening the Abdats came over coz they kidnap Mir and Bibik , while we were in JB. Watched Santau, where Kak Juli and my sound effects were louder than the show.Muahahah!!

That marks the end of the long holiday, well spent with people I love and that loves me. Wouldnt asked for anything more.

I’m a much happier fat sunny woman after all those laugh therapies I received the last long weekend.

I don’t think I’m a physcomaniac anymore cause after the talk with Mak last week, I’ve learned that giving in is always the best solution. Its the best food for your soul. Just let wat ppl wanna talk and think of me,coz those who matter dont mind and those who mind never really mattered. At the end of the day, I know wat I did and He knows it.

Every human have their own set of characters. Some are with principles, while some are not. But its really their business. If they chose to live their lives like lalang, let them then. Its just that it makes me angry sometimes that ppl lies just to save their own ass and in that process hurt me. A leopard will never change its spots. So the best way around these ppl is not to talk so much to them. Speak to them only when neccessasary.

I’ve also leart that its best now I help myself and my own family, rather than I crack my brains for others. Can call me selfish, but after last week’s episode, its hard to trust just anyone now.

I thank those who sent me the messages as it had knocked some sense into me. Theres really no point getting all emotional. I should have been heartless and emotionless. It works better that way for some. Then I wouldnt feel like a victim and made you all angry with me.

I’m not selfish, I’m just emotionless TO YOU ONLY, as how you want it to be.

At the salon now as I’m typing tis. Cannot tahan lah my hair. Its neither here nor there. Dah mcm rambut singa.

So I’ve decided to perm it! Rebond will be more ex. Anyway now fashion rite permed hair.

Needed a little indulgence for myself anyway. Can? I use chubby’s ang pow. Thank yuk eh chubby.

Btw I feel more at ease and good when I don’t fight back and be defensive. Instead give in and just apologise. Words of a mother n husband are always the best. Must be more diligent now and listen to them. Coz they know u best and they can analysis the situation better then give u good advise. I like to act through my heart, which always cause myself to hurt.

I also realise tat by hurting others it hurts myself even more. Giving in doesn’t mean I’m losing. It just makes me a better person. So insyallah tats wat I will do from now onwards. Tats ina.

Thank you God for opening my heart…alhamdullilah.

I had a good talk with mak just now.

She said I have changed. Not the ina I use to be. I’m now rina, the one with the vicious mouth.

The only other person I can believe other than chubby is mak. Maybe I have?

I know I’m no longer the sweet innocent slenger submissive girl I use to be. Because of the situations I’ve been in and gone thru I’ve become a very defensive person.

Is tat no good?

So today after a long time , I prayed. Prayed to become ina again. Prayed to become ina the one tat loves her mother very much so much so tat she’s afraid of lying to her. Ina tat accepts her fate and took it with stride and went thru all the shits without a fight and being defensive.

Ya allah ya tuhan ku, hanya kau yang maha mengetahui keperitan hidupku. Berikanlah aku ketenganan, penuhilah jiwaku tengan taufik dan hidayahmu. Bersihkanlah hati ini dari segala sifat dendam dan kebenciaan. Sucikan lah jiwa ku, ya Allah ya tuhan ku yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang. Jadikan lah aku seorang anak, isteri dan ibu yang baik dan solehah.

Rabbana atina fiddunia hasanah wafil akhirati hasana wakina azabannar. Amin.

Dear visitors from UPS, ren chi hospital and several others, thank you for dropping by. Hope you’ve enjoyed what you read.

Some of the posts maybe meluat to u. It may seem I’m like a show off. It is purely intentional as they are for those who have been wanting and cursing me for a bad life. Alhamdullilah, my life have never been a tough one.

So I just had to write all these SHOW OFFS post to let them know that ppl still do love me and I couldn’t have asked for a more blessed life than I am having now.

I don’t usually write these kinda posts, as some of u may already know. So there tis is why.